nature/nurture

It's a genetic fact that people are born with impositions for certain behaviors such as violence or depression. In the same way, I believe that people are created to have certain desires, maybe as a result of how they were raised but nonetheless these desires are very real. Personally, I notice many behaviors and desires in myself that are both environmental as well as genetic.
Genetically, I am prone to depression. Call it a chemical imbalance or whatever, but it happens and I have to retreat to a solitary place until it passes.
I think environment has much to do with character traits as well, and although many people disagree with my conclusion I believe this to be fact. I am gay as a result of how my parents, especially my father, failed to affirm me as a child and as a boy and a man. As a result I always craved the attention and affirmation of men and when the sexual energy kicked in it went towards the unfamiliar...other men. I'm sure there were other factors that lead to my being gay and there probably is a reason why I find big guys attractive, but this is the founding reason. Maybe things would have been different had I been raised in a different environment, but who knows. I know that now I am proud to be gay and I have an amazing man in my life that I love very much.

There it is.