"Grabbing Life By the Huevos"

In the course of a relationship not only are you getting to know that person but you are exposed to the things in their life that they do and are a part of. Those things while introduced to the relationship by one now become a part of both lives, and it's hard to realize just how many things you "have" together; that's our coffee shop or that's our song or that's where we go to get groceries. After the breakup you truly start to see all the things that you had. Everywhere you go there's a record of that past love and it's enough to drive you crazy. Now going to your blockbuster, or going to get dessert and a coffee at your favorite dessert and coffee place holds the weight of memory. Once a place of release or refuge now becomes a reminder of dissolution.

Now I am faced with two choices. ONE never go to those places again or TWO begin to reclaim my life from the breakup. The only way to do this is by going repeatedly to these places with other people and creating new experiences. Currently I am working on reclaiming the following: Roma Liquor Store (which is gonna be tough cause Blake pretty much was a part of the Paki family that owned it), Rudy's BBQ, Will and Grace, all rap music, the Chocolate Bar, and tons of little things.

Last night I went out to the bars with my friends Andrew, Justin, and James and had a fantastic time. Although the last thing I want is a relationship (and will doubtfully ever find anything worth anything at a gay bar) it was good to go out and drink and be a part of something I've long been removed from. I saw a lot of friends that I hadn't seen in a while, caught up with some and avoided others. Me and James even walked the outer loop of the back patio at the ripcord (that mean's a lot for those of you who know). I sang songs and giggled with Andrew all the way home :) and made a great mixed tape for the night! It was the most fun I've had in a while!